first day of school

I knew today was going to be hard. I knew I would be an emotional mess. I knew I would cry. I'm not going to lie. It's been pretty rough.

The girls were all ready for this morning. They had their clothes laid out and backpacks ready to go. And much to my delight, they were excited about pictures. 

Morgan had no problem. She walked into school like she owned the place. Same school, new classroom and teachers. She took it like a champ.

She graduated to the big kid playground and her class has the first play slot of the day. She was so excited about the new adventures. So much so that she wanted to be done with pictures and go play with her friends.

Addison was as excited as she could be while we were still at home. I still can't get over the poses she pulled out for these pictures.

Traffic at school was a mess so we parked a block away and walked. Addison held my hand and still talked about how excited she was.

We walked her into the cafeteria and then it started. The tears. I tried so hard to hold them back while we were still with her, but I couldn't help it. Then I found out they wouldn't let us into the classroom with her. I had about 30 seconds to say goodbye. We were both a mess.

Addison lined up with her class and then walked away crying. I caught one more peak of her in the hallway. I'm so thankful for this lady who held her hand as she walked. One day I'll find out her role at the school and thank her. Then I was one of those mom's lurking in the hallway. It only made it worse for me. Addison started crying again as she opened her backpack. I wanted so badly to burst in that room to make sure she was okay.

I spent most of the morning crying at my desk, hoping Starbucks would make me feel better.

I'm doing better. Not great, but better. I'm really glad I left the teacher's email addresses at home. I'm pretty sure if I had them that I would have emailed a thousand times already. I can't wait to see her and hear all about it. After all the tears, I'm sure she had a fantastic day.